Every time I spend time around other children&parents, I feel nervous? that’s not the word. Self-aware in a negative way? kinda closer. 

When I try a baby voice, I sound like a devil possession so I’m not doing that. I also just don’t care about things kids are doing, like acting interested in things that aren’t interesting and asking questions about dumb things. Also just watching a kid do nothing interesting all afternoons sounds so boring to me. Maybe this’ll all change and it’ll come naturally when I have my own, but right now it’s intimidating to be around other good moms. If anyone is reading this, pls send comfort. 

(DO I HAVE TO TALK HIGH PITCHED TO A KID OR CAN I JUST BE NORMAL) 1.5 months until bby comes, I’m feelin this today